Na-na-na- I'm going to start a fight!

This is supposed to be my last month here; I'm not supposed to see 2009. This is the month he planned to have me killed so he could collect the insurance. He might try something, or have someone come after me, during our annual "celebrating life" party my daughters and I have every Dec. I'm going to have to be extremely watchful this month, especially during the party. My lawyer is taking her time with my case. She says she trying to get him to just give up and sign the papers. I know patience is golden, but I'll be so glad when this whole process is over and he's out of my life forever; him and his sons. He's mean and violent. But the only way he can get back at me now is by throwing some of my property away that he thinks I won't notice: Let's see how he likes it.

He goes to the kingdom hall and pretends to serve Jehovah, fooling everyone into thinking he's so righteous. All the while, he's maliciously planning to hurt me and maybe my daughters. I mean, this man is-well was- going out in field service hypocritically representing Jehovah's organization while he holds murderous intent in his heart. How can he TRY and take away the only loving parent, and family, my daughters have? Does he ever stop to think what this will do to them? The devastation it would cause? They've been through so much already. But of course he doesn't care. He's never cared about anybody but himself as all abusive men do. Does he really think Jehovah doesn't notice? That he'll get away with all he's done and will try to do in the future? THE ANSWER IS NO!!! Jehovah knows everything that's in his heart. That shows how stupid, and how big of an idiot he is!

I'll just keep praying and relying on Jehovah that my daughters and I will get the victory over him, I get what is rightfully mine, and that I'll still be here when all of this is over. I just want this over and to move on with my life. I want my emotional health back, and to be able to get off those anxiety pills I have to take everyday.