And Guess What!!!

So, I had already made an appointment with another lawyer, when I got an email from my current one saying she had filed two motions in my behalf. It seems that she had been trying to get the "Black Nazi's" lawyer to get him to turn in the discovery papers and set up a time for mediation, but they would never get back in touch with her. So, she went to court and filed motions to compel. His lawyer sent him the motion papers in the mail, but he hasn't checked the mailbox yet. The court proceeding is Feb. 20th. (I'm so glad I don't have to appear) I hope this time I get the victory, and he doesn't walk out of court with more money in his pocket! Believe me, it could happen! So, it seems she's working in my behalf after all, and I guess I'll stay with her.

I'm so livid right now, it'll probably last way into next week. We're destitute: No jobs, no money in the bank, barely able to buy food and gas. And if we need anything else, like clothes and shoes, well too bad. I can't afford to buy meat (I've forgotten what chicken, hamburger, or even fish taste like) What does a twelve inch Sub taste like anymore? We keep getting job offers we can't take for religious reasons. On top of that, I have to deal with this Nazi's murderous attitude. He's stalling and dodging this case because he can't bear to part with half of his money, and other possessions; Things that I worked just as hard for, and am entitled to whether he, or any man, agrees with it or not. So, what is their usual solution? Take out insurance and have their wives killed so they won't have to lose or pay out anything.

I'm extremely angry because we keep begging and begging Jehovah for a decent job we can take, and yet we keep getting the ones we can't possibly work at. Everytime, we get our hopes up when the phone rings, then it's like the rug gets snatched right out from under us because it's a dead end. Like today: A job offer we couldn't accept. Surprise! Didn't see that coming! What now? How in the world am I going to pay our bills next month, and come up with the money to get our car tags that are due? Do you hear that, Jehovah? Do you think you can send us jobs we CAN take? Now there's a thought. I don't know, maybe it's me. After all, I am only human. Humans wouldn't send someone a job they couldn't accept over and over; We'd give them one they could. It sounds simple, right? But Jehovah takes something that we need desperately, and turns it into an extremely complex stressful ordeal. Dear God, what are you waiting on!!!

I'm done!!

You weren't there; you never were!

Well, I just paid the last bill that will leave $17.00 or less in our bank account. That's all the money we have left. We're really going to be struggling now; we can barely afford food and gas, not to mention other necessities, as it is. But, we'll make it; my daughters and I will get through this. I'll just be glad when we do. I'm doing all I can not to break down; I'm emotionally spent and all I do is cry. I'm trying so hard to be strong for my daughters, but sometimes they see right through me. We apply for every job we can, but still nothing. We're destitute--broke.

I'm fed up with my current lawyer. She doesn't answer my emails or return my phone calls. How long does it take to type out "I'll get back with you soon" or something? She tells me to come to her office at a certain time, and everytime she's not there. She forgot all about our appointment last time; she was at the bank and then on her way home. That shows how important my case is to her. When we went to court for a spousal support hearing, I came out getting less money than when I went in. That black nazi gained $120, and all she could say was "thank you, your honor". I lost money to him, and all she could say was "thank you, your honor"?!! She didn't try to fight for me or anything. Now, I'm struggling on $150 a week, no money in the bank, and meanwhile, he's out spending money left and right, with an extra $120 in his pocket thank you. I'm done with her, so I made an appointment with another lawyer I hope can help me even though I have no money. I hope, and this is my biggest request, that we will bleed him dry.

We'll see...